Is this kind of long and alone night, Where feelings and thought strike.
Why must we grow up? And why must there be memories?
I think I just found out one of my used to be very good friend pass away last month. Somehow I guess. Was rather taken back by that. And I kinda -L-O-S-T-.
Wherever she may be, I hope she rest in peace. And you will always be part of my memory.

Feelings, love. Why must there be such a thing to begin with ?
I felt so much damaged. I think I need a good long rest, perhaps a good get away will do away everything. People change, I've change. Is gonna be a new phrase of life. I cnt undo the change nor stop the change, I will just adapt and change accordingly ? If only there isnt...

New years coming!
(:
all happy and ready to set for it!
Dresses, shoes, bags, skirts, tops, HERE I COME!~:D

You are one in a million.
Someone that I will never ever want to let go.
I just wanna spend the rest of my life with you.
And this is how important you are to me.

No matter what happen,
I love you always. (;

When was the last time you ever fall in love?
I stay awake the whole night just to miss you, hoping that I will see your msg in my phone. Every mins, every hour every night I waited..
Glances at my phone ample time, but to no valid.
Msges are just getting lesser and lesser. Either sleeping or working. It has been 4 mnth we have been together. Maybe you are really tired.

I decided to just let you take a rest. I am feeling terrible inside me. maybe I am too emotional, too sensitive. But the feeling is no longer the same. Maybe I have been to nice to say okay to everything. And I believe is now too late to say No to any other things. you might have just said I've changed. Into someone you dont know.

just where is my happiness?

I am just ugly,
just low esteem,
just bitchy,
just chor lor,
just unclean,
just lazy,
just useless that I cnt let a person love me even more as the day goes by,
or even to love me.
JUST WHAT THE FUCKING WRONG WITH ME?

When was ur las long msg,
when was ur last hug
when was ur last comfort,
when was ur last smile to me,
when was ur last kiss,
when was the last holding hand,
when was the last chilling session,
when was the last time you told me you love me?

When was the last time you auto msg me for no reason?
When was the last time you will report to me?

now everything happen for a reason.
you report to me cos i made a fuss out of it
I remind you when was the last time we ever hold hand
I was so wrong to post anything on your facebook wall about us.
No body should know about us
break up seems so easy task for u.
I am nth but trouble.
Just ranting.
Feeling rather sad..

nites world, I am all alone in this cold, long, lonely night.
I am guilty for loving you so much,
entrusting my happiness to you,
maybe I expect too much,
I just aint good enough.

I wanna:
go under water world
go sentosa walk walk
go science centre
go zoo
go night safari
go bird park
go escape
go JB
go KL
go shopping
go eat eat eat!

and i need to shed off some weight. Cos new year is coming. @#%^&@#(*(*#@

No matter what happen,

I knew.

I love you.
and I will miss you still...

I din choose to feel this way.
But some times is your actions that made me felt this way.

Love is always sweet in the beginning.
In the mid, it starts to fade.
At last it became nth.

The feeling of neglected,
the feeling of unwanted,
the feeling of unloved.

I dont understand my feelings, but it seems to me that things changed.